Outline
I. Introduction
*Description of home
*People judge her
II. She arrives to the city
*She does not know what to do
*She buys a newspaper
*She goes to audition
*She cries
III. Douglas & her
*She knows Douglas
*Douglas helps her
*They make a book together
*She is hired
IV. All I she wants
*She has a lot of success
*She has a lot of lovers
*Douglas ask her dating, she accepts
*She sells designs to Alexander Mc Queen
*She celebrates with a lover
*She runs behind Douglas
V. Coma
*She has an accident
*She fall in coma
*Douglas visits her
* She reflect her life
Elain
I will always remember this phrase because it was the last I heard “You are just a little girl from a small town! They are going to kill you up there” At that moment I took my suitcase and I left my house, one little tear rolled over my face when I crossed the door. Home sweet home nobody is going to love you like in your home. My house was a perfect place to grow up with a happy and peaceful childhood full of good feelings, such as: honesty, hope, love, etc. , but it was not enough at least not for me. Everybody believes that they can judge me, because I gave up to a normal life. For this reason, I am a bad girl would rather live in the city instead of the town. This is my story. In the end you can judge me too.
A photograph session, walk on the runway, to meet elegant and famous people, wear expensive clothes and drive a nice car. That was all I wanted. November ’99 I left the bus. In my mind there existed just one single thought, to be the best top model and the best designer. All that my eyes saw at that moment were totally amazing big buildings, too many cars in the street, a lot of noise, I was among the crowd where people walked too fast and I noticed they did not pay attention to each other. There I was a little and young girl in the big city. I did not know how to start looking for a job, so I bought a newspaper. I found an incredible job offer. I ran to that place and my first disillusionment was about to come. I was not 100% prepared, in my book I just had home pictures in comparison with other books that I could observe when I was up there. My interview started. I felt like an object, there were four people, two girls and two boys. They expressed their ideas as if I were not there. They say something like, “obviously she is overweight” “she is too short” “he is not pretty”. One of them asked me “What were you thinking when you decided to present yourself here? I really wanted to cry. I ran away crying, out of that place, but that day I learnt to always be ready and in order to reach my objective, since that moment I left my feelings away.
Days after, I was sitting in a comfortable chair, drinking a delicious chocolate I was really sad and worried about my situation. I felt terrified to go again to another audition. I lifted my face, in front of my table there was a man. I have to say he was easy to the eye. He said, “Do you need something else?” I said, “No, thanks!” He smile and said, “Ok! My name is Douglas and I was observing you and you look so worried, may I help you?” I really did not pay attention and I responded “just bring me the bill” He said, “Ok I want to help you” I said “What? I want to be a top model, are you a manager? If you are not, just go” he said, “Take it easy darling, talk to me what happened” I told him all my troubles almost all my life. He helped me in an unimaginable way. Thanks to him I made a really good book to present and I went like twenty auditions. After all my effort, my cell phone started ringing. I felt so important and famous, so popular promoters liked my photos and they wanted me to be their model.
Thousands of men, a lot of friends, loved for everyone, expensive clothes, elegant cars, the VIP in all the famous and private parties. I had all I dreamt. I sent a letter to my house to which I never had a response. Honestly, I did not care about anything or anyone, nor Douglas. Now I reflect about that, but it is too late I guess. I had a lot of lovers I started designing clothes. Douglas felt in love with me I accepted to start sating other two or three boys. I really enjoyed this because it made me feel desired. After a long work shift my design started selling in the most fashionable stores. Months after, Alexander McQueen bought some of my designs. That day one of my lovers invited me to celebrate this awesome news. We went to a famous and beautiful hotel. We were kissing when Douglas entered the suit. He just stared at me in silence I told him I could explain it. He just left. I dressed up and ran behind him.